13 Sep 2012

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Hayley päivitti bändin LiveJournalia kertoen hieman albumin edistymisestä ja omista tuntemuksistaan matkan varrella. Suomennos ilmestyy myöhemmin. Lue alkuperäinen LJ-merkintä täältä.

to be happy now.

fair warning. i am allllll over the place tonight! so hopefully, you guys can follow along down these rabbit trails…

we’re officially a little over half-way through the tracking of this album. it feels real-er than ever. i’m starting to understand all these songs more and where they’ve actually come from… for a minute, it was such a whirlwind of inspiration, emotion, and sweat. now that we’ve spent some time getting to know the album and growing with it, i can finally tell myself it’s real. i can just almost tell myself that it’s alright to relax.

have you ever been that way? haven’t you ever said “things are so great right now that i know something’s bound to go wrong… any minute.” just so you know, i might be the QUEEN of that phrase. maybe it’s part of being a total realist? maybe it’s just the fact that i’ve been through some rough situations and i know how awful it feels not to be prepared for the worst? it’s been a while since i didn’t have my fists in a ball… since i wasn’t sort of on the defense, waiting for the attack. if there was an actual good reason for why i lived that way for so long i’d give it to you but now that i’m (hopefully!) passed that, it’s a little unclear as to why that would ever be worth it. because now i wake up every morning and i know for certain that there are at least a few good people around me, if not physically then just by an iPhone somewhere, who could look me in the eye and tell me that they love me. i’ve got just enough blood in my veins and air in my lungs to know that i am definitely not dead. and that could be enough to say outloud, to myself… “You’re OK!”

another thing to consider is what if there is a part of us that doesn’t fully want to be satisfied? what if there’s something that asks us: if everything is “OK” then what do we have to strive for? to LIVE for, even? that’s the constant duel in my spirit! i want life to go smoothly but when it’s all working out… i’m sort of bored. ugh. it reminds me of a lyric by mewithoutYou that i’ve always connected with so deeply. “All I want is to want one thing.” how beautifully that depicts our nature as humans to want everything, sometimes multiple things at once that couldn’t be more opposite… and in the end get upset with the whole thing and want to get rid of desire altogether. (i digress!)

what i’ve had to learn during this last year and a half, is that i might actually just be happy with where life is heading at this point. doesn’t mean i’ll always feel this way. nothing’s perfect… at least for very long! anyway, it might just be OK to be happy now. right now in this very moment. i should just go with it, right? by the way, if i don’t sound completely insane to you after 3 paragraphs which all are complete contradictions to each other then i appreciate your patience and flexible perspective.

all this to say, i feel happy and i feel like my soul is actually being fulfilled. not only by the making of this album but also by the few close relationships i have in my life that have either stood the test of time or have bloomed from virtually nothing since entering whatever phase of my life i’m in at the moment. i’m not waiting for the sky to fall because i know that while the sky is staying up there in it’s place, i have my opportunity to live. no more wasting time, hope, emotions, on worrying when, if, or how i could ever be let down again. i’m going to tell myself it’s okay to be happy now.

i guess i want to finish this off by asking you what fulfills you. what is it that reaches your soul? it doesn’t have to be some profound thing or even anything cool. if you can hold that one thing in your mind and know that you’re exactly who you are supposed to be in that moment, then that could be all you need to get from point A to point B. maybe i want to finish THAT by saying, let’s all listen to “One Thing” by One Direction and sing it to each other. you’ve got that one thing and guess what? it doesn’t even need to be named. cause you just know and so does One Direction.

ok, i don’t know how you made it to the end of this…. love you, mean it.

13 Aug 2012

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Hayley päivitti Paramoren Tumblria uudella, hieman pidemmällä blogipäivityksellä. Alkuperäinen päivitys löytyy täältä.


If I remember correctly, this time last year we were somewhere on the opposite side of the world playing shows to people that we could’ve never imagined would know who we are or the songs we’ve written. It was such an exciting time to be in this band, with all sorts of new experiences and hurdles we were actually looking forward to jumping over.  The highest of them being a new album – our fourth full length album, to be exact – that would need writing and recording. We told everyone, fans and journalist, family, friends… everyone, that we were determined for this album to be a defining point in our career. Not for any reason other than that we would make this recording process the most enjoyable and the most liberating experience we’ve ever spent creating anything in the history of our band. While there were a few points early on that I felt it was going to be another stressful and severely taxing road to travel, a few months went by and we got into whatever “groove” we’re in now. Making this album is the reason that our band ever began. I don’t know if it’s going to be the biggest and most successful thing we’ve ever done… who even wants to know that sort of stuff ahead of time? I can’t be 100% sure if every fan or critic who’s ever enjoyed Paramore will enjoy all these songs as well. None of us know anything except for the fact that it is, hands down, our favorite body of work to date.  And a whole year from the night I wrote the first set of lyrics and melodies that would end up on our fourth album, it feels good to be able to say with all honestly how much we love what we’re doing right now.

A quick update on how things are actually going in the studio… we are 4 or 5 songs in. We like to record entire songs one at a time so we can actually hear how it’s coming together in real time rather than being all over the place with a million parts of a million songs all at once. Hence the reason only being a handful of songs in might seem a bit underwhelming to everyone outside our immediate bubble.

Seeing as most of the residents of our immediate creative bubble are back on tour duty… Our producer, JMJ, is out with Beck and we’re going on a mini tour that includes opening for The Cure at Reading and Leeds Festival (AHHHH!!!!)… we’ve taken a short break from making album #4 to see if we’ve still got what it takes to get out there and melt faces. I’ve got my hopes up and I don’t like to be let down.

The guys and I are pretty psyched on our setlist and just playing shows in general. All I’m going to say is that I’ve had to actually go and buy a couple Paramore albums again in order to refresh my failing memory on some of the lyrics. So, just to prepare yourself, you might want to brush up on some of those older ones too. Wouldn’t want to be caught singing the wrong words, right? How embarrassing.


03 Jul 2012

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Hayley päivitti Paramoren virallista tumblria uudella kirjoituksella.


When I was 17, I started writing lyrics to a song that would later be called “Let The Flames Begin”. It was on our sophomore album, RIOT! I never felt like it really sounded as meaningful on record as it seemed when we played it live. Over the years, we added on and added on to it. Not only is it one of our favorites to play at shows but one of the most highly requested live songs by… ahem… you guys. Maybe it’s just because the song is heavier than most our other songs or maybe it’s cause it feels really emotional to sing some of those words. Either way, it means a lot to all of us.

The lyrics touched on the way I saw us (people who were around my same age at the time) and how we fit in to society… and sort of lightly dusted the topic of the human condition. How broken we must seem from the outside, to whoever happens to be looking in. I have always had that deep sort of hurting feeling that happens when you hear a tragic story of someone young who is diagnosed with a terminal sickness, or when you see someone homeless and begging on the side of the road who you could give a couple dollars to but could never really help… but I get it all the time… just about the world at large. Because I feel, truly and deeply, that we are all searching for some kind of cure or some kind of quick fix, all the time. Always filling a void. I do this every day even when I’m not aware. The condition of being alive and breathing. “How can I please me?” It’s not with pessimistic eyes that I see all these things, I just believe it’s realistic. For some people, there is faith that more is at work than just the brokenness of all of us. For others, it’s enough just to know that we try to be the best human we can be and make whatever difference we can. Whatever your pleasure, belief, sorrow or triumph… we are all human and we are all constantly facing some sort of brokenness. Of the heart, of finances, of family, of dreams… it is real pain and it can’t be ignored.

Sometimes the only thing that gets me through a hard time is knowing that we are all (somewhat) in the fight together. Even as we might feel like we’re fighting alone, there billions of other humans doing exactly the same thing. In whatever their respective fights may be. I don’t know how it helps but really, it does. To know that no one has it figured out. It’s a bit of a drag but it’s just good comfort.

Seeing as even a good 6 years later I still feel all these things about life and being human, it probably should’ve been obvious that we’d write another song with a similar message for the new album. This time around I feel like it comes across a bit more hopeless… but actually that’s what excites me the most about it. To me, it’s getting to the bottom of what you thought was a bottomless pit… and that’s where you surrender yourself to whatever is next. That’s what billions of other people are doing right now. Hitting the bottom only to lift their gaze up and figure out how to get off of the ground again. Yeah, knowing that definitely helps.

It’s strange that a song about all this could go on what is about to be the most positive and most intoxicatingly fun Paramore album we have ever written… but somehow it works. And anyways, anyone who knows me knows I can only write so many happy lyrics til I have to start venting about something else again.

This is long and it’s late and I hope it makes sense to anyone if not all of you who actually read it.


Tekstissä Hayley kertoo Let the Flames Beginin merkityksestä ja siitä miten biisi on tärkeä heille ja meille faneille, ja miten se on yksi heidän lempilivebiiseistään kuten myös todella toivottu fanien keskuudessa. Hayley kertoo heidän tehneen uudelle levylle jotain samankaltaista, mutta tällä kertaa ehkä hieman toiveekkampaa. On hassua miten tämä uusin levy on positiivisin ja hauskin levy minkä he ovat tehneet, mutta jotenkin se toimii. Hayley myös sanoo, että hän voi kirjoittaa vaan tiettyyn rajaan asti iloisista asioista ja jossain vaiheessa hän alkaa taas purkaa jostain muusta.

30 Jun 2012

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Hayley päivitti Paramoren Tumblria uudella blogipäivityksellä. Alkuperäinen päivitys löytyy täältä.


… I get out my computer thinking I’m going to sit down and write some in-depth blog entry; talk about lyrics and life’s pros and cons. Tonight, however, I really just feel like saying thank you. Can’t fake a blog post! A big, long-winded entry is sure to happen soon… as I always have something to say about something. Tonight I just feel grateful that we went into a studio again this morning and got to live through our songs. It still feels surreal. Thanks to those of you who are supporting us from all over the place. You put the fire in us all the time to create and recreate. We are so excited and feel so good about what we are doing here. We’ve been waiting to make this album for a long time now.

See you tomorrow!


24 Jun 2012

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Hayley päivitti paramoren Tumblria lupaamallansa blogipäivityksellä. Katso alkuperäinen päivitys täältä.

Hey hey,

Well… as promised, I’m back here doing a blog. Writing a blog. This weekend is the first time in over a week that I’ve been all on my lonesome. We’ve had family, friends, and co-workers in and out of here, visiting or helping us with various things… such as stay sane while off the road. My sister just left yesterday morning. She visited me all week and we basically did everything there is to do here in Los Angeles. Found ourselves in that infamous traffic all week long. Even so, we still walked to the Hollywood sign, sat on a cliff in Malibu (right near our old band house during BNE recording sessions), talked about boys, spent a day at Disneyland, and hung at the Warped tour. Great week, right? Now, it’s all quiet. Now, what?

Ugh, I’d like to take a few sentences to complain about these longish claw nails I had put on for the hell of it. How does anyone type with these things? How does Katy Perry tweet? How does Gaga play her keytar? Anyways….

Since I’m feeling particularly alone right about now, I thought it’d be a good time to talk about one of the songs we’ll be recording for the new album. It’s kind of fun to get into subject matter without any of you actually have heard the song or even knowing the exact words to it. The song is not as much about feeling lonely as it is enjoying the simple state of being alone. For instance, on a Saturday night, like tonight. I quite enjoy the opportunity to cook a meal for myself and sit on the couch watching Pretty Woman all night if that’s what I feel like. Read a book. Write a song. You get the point. Basically, I don’t mind spending some time by myself. It’s something that I’ve always learned a lot from.

Over the last four years or so, Paramore got busier and spent more time working on tour than we did at home. I sort of forgot how much I loved, even needed, my alone time. But the past year, being as “slow” as it was… I was able to sort of refocus all that nervous, busy energy and learn once again how nice a night-in can be. In fact, I spend most nights “in”, unless there’s work, family, or some important event going on. It’s probably a phase and life is very much like a pendulum… So, by the time this really gets around, I could be raging every night. (See: sober-raging, for reference). All this to say, I’ve talked to many people who say that they really don’t like to be alone. That they can’t shut their mind off when there’s no one around talking to them or when the music isn’t loud. It takes practice. And truly, it’s worth getting good at.

The other side of this is how reclusive I’ve become as of late. Like I said, I love my time alone. With only one or two close friends. I’m pretty weary of people getting close to me and whether or not it’s a positive or a negative thing, I’m not too concerned right now. What matters is I feel good about it. And as we already discussed, it’s most likely some phase but I’m learning nonetheless. It just seems like most people my age are going through the exact opposite phase. For some reason, I needed to write it out, how I felt about the social ladder, overactive social lives… and my lack of any sort of care in the world about it all.

Geez, what a long winded explanation. Think about it though. Spend some time with yourself if you haven’t. I’m no therapist but it seems like it couldn’t hurt. Certainly does wonders for me. In fact, writing run-on sentences and blogging all this nonsense is one of my favorite quiet things to do. I’ll be writing these more often now that we are headed back into the studio… so come on back to this bloggy blog any ol’ time you wanna “be alone” with me.

HW on be-third of Paramore.